4960.
that’s our old address. old. old residence. the old house. our first home. as in past tense. it’s no longer ours. it’s someone else’s home now. and as happy as i am to move on. to move forward. to make new memories. i can’t help but to hurt and ache just a little. ok. a lot. as i turned the key on the deadbolt one last time, tears filled my eyes. ok. flooded my eyes. and the last 8 years came rushing back as though it were only yesterday.
dear old house,
i hope you are loved as much as we loved you. i hope you capture many new moments and milestones for a new family. you were so very good at that. you captured a boy and a girl. you captured them falling in love. you captured that love turning into an engagement. and then one day you sent me off to a church where i stood before god and family and became that boy’s wife. you threw a ton of curve balls at us, too. like the great flood of 2008. house, you held my new marriage together like glue as we put you back together piece by piece. that was a long 6 months, house. you have been painted and filled with nail holes more times than i can count. thank you for always tolerating my creativity and ocd-ism’s. i only wanted you to look your best, house. and house, thank you for being the home in which we brought two little souls to. for letting us raise our family with your help. thank you for capturing my babies milestones. first steps. first words. midnight feedings. also, house, thank you for tolerating the mess. dropped food. dripping sippy cups. and more burned meals filled you with smoke than i want to talk about. thank you for everything, house. thank you for comforting late-night flu bugs and calming the thunderstorm jitters. thank you for being warm, cozy and welcoming. house, you are filled wall to wall with laughter. and not just run-of-the-mill laughter. i’m talking side splitting amazing laughter. the kind that comes from your gut. the kind that leaves you sore for days. many fire-pit and wine nights, chili cook-off’s, and get together’s were had with you. what amazing moments and stories you hold from us. and holidays, house. what amazing and spectacular memories we have. letters from santa, carving pumpkins, baking thanksgiving turkey’s. all shared with you. watching my children run down your staircase and into the living room, filled with toys, is enough to swell this momma’s heart past capacity. you have given my children the spirit of christmas, and house, that’s all i have ever wanted for them. i want them to believe in the spirit. the good. the amazing things this world has to offer and with your help, they do. house, you have even been there through the bad. the tears. the harder times. and house, you were always what we came home to. even in difficult times. and when those times passed, you were still there. and for that i am forever grateful.
house, i am going to miss your big backyard and watching my babies swing on your swing-set. playing soccer and basketball on the patio. i’m going to miss your big front porch. many nights were spent sitting with croup babies in the wee hours of the chilly mornings. i’m going to miss the cool breeze blowing through your high ceilings in the spring time. the smell of fresh rain. i’m going to miss even the squeaky old floors. for being 103 years old, you held up really well, house. i loved your charm more than you will ever know. i was proud to call you my house. i was proud to show you off. thank you, house, for being amazing. for being perfect. for just holding my family tight in your four walls. we’ve had such an incredible 8 years, house.
and house, you are a home. and i hope that you will forever be a home to someone else. and i hope they never, ever for one single second take you for granted.
it’s been fun and as sad as i am to let you go, i know that this chapter is now closed and i have such amazing memories to take with me.